So I did something that I always tried not to do. I put myself in a vulnerable state to see if there was hope of relationship with a female. I was shot down. That is the part I am OK with. I am not used to being in that situation but that is life. The part that I am struggling with is the rebuilding of the defences of my heart. It is something that I tell people they need to do when they come to me with issues of their own. I am very glad to know that I have some amazing brothers in Christ that have been there for me and have helped me along with this process.

This situation has reminded me of a story from the old testament. It is when Nehemiah rebuilds the wall surrounding Jerusalem after the people of Israel return from exile. I am reminded be of this story because Nehemiah could not do it alone he had to rely on the people of Israel just I am leaning on brothers in Christ to help me through this situation.