Ok, lets be honest I have been posting things that have a bit of a serious tone, but not this one. SO I set up some standards for myself for the Christmas season. My big one is that I am not allowed to play Christmas music until the day after Thanksgiving. Well I usually don't do a good job of this cause usually I start playing Christmas music around the first of November. This year I did a little better I have made it until Nov. 18th. Ok that is all I have to say for right now!!!

So I did something that I always tried not to do. I put myself in a vulnerable state to see if there was hope of relationship with a female. I was shot down. That is the part I am OK with. I am not used to being in that situation but that is life. The part that I am struggling with is the rebuilding of the defences of my heart. It is something that I tell people they need to do when they come to me with issues of their own. I am very glad to know that I have some amazing brothers in Christ that have been there for me and have helped me along with this process.

This situation has reminded me of a story from the old testament. It is when Nehemiah rebuilds the wall surrounding Jerusalem after the people of Israel return from exile. I am reminded be of this story because Nehemiah could not do it alone he had to rely on the people of Israel just I am leaning on brothers in Christ to help me through this situation.